It's strange the things I think of as my days as an e-book writer are closing down.
Last night, I was reminded of the Will and Grace episode when Will does a Susan Lucci impression.
She is supposed to have said, "What do I have to do to get some recognition in this town?"
She said this after being nominated for the Daytime Emmy for the 18th time without winning - she did win in 1998 - there is one difference, while Ms. Lucci was working at least she was being paid.
In my struggle to get recognized as an author, I have not been paid - even a small amount - for almost a year.
I paid the high price for not following the trends.
Ten years ago, I said I'd rather fail for being myself than succeed by following the trends in writing.
I have failed, but at the same time, I stayed true to my beliefs and never followed the trends. Never did I consider following a pattern, not even now when I think of writing trashy romances as the final straw, for I will still be my voice.
I have often considered if I will get remembered after I die?
How will people recall me?
A man of honor who stood for what he believed even if it brought him ridicule and scorn?
A reasonable person who tried to do his best for others, even if it wasn't appreciated?
An honest person who spoke the truth?
The writer of a bestselling science series called Forgestriker?
The award-winning writer of The Chronicles of Mark Johnson?
How do I see myself?
A truthful man, people often didn't like what I said, but often the truth hurts.
As a failed writer because though I won the award, the book never sold after winning the award.
Unknown depths of depravity
Now I am resigned to writing on my blog only, who knows what I will be writing, or who cares to what depths of depravity I will plummet?
I did start an adult version of Snow White several years ago, and this week I found I had the cover still on file, so how about Snow White and the seven dwarves in an orgy?
I also got sent some erotic downloads for supporting a GoFundMe scheme from a Polish photographer, the young ladies in the shots are not always entirely, or partially clothed; for my taste, most of the girls are too young and slender, but then I am not writing to my taste but what will get read.
The end of the Labour party.
Labour leader Jeremy Corbyn refuses to talk to Theresa May about Brexit, but he is willing to talk to terrorists like the IRA and Hamas, what does that say about the man?
Before he had given his speech of acceptance a dozen of his MP's had left the part, and a dozen more left within another two weeks.
Being the Opposition leader is the easy job as all you need do is object to what gets proposed with no consequences.
Other than his party's belief in him, he is running scared of Dianne Abbot opening her mouth as all she does is bring ridicule to her party.
Even if the party got a new leader, they are finished as their policies go against the thoughts of the working man in the UK. How can you support the British worker when you are encouraging workers from the EU to come to the UK?
Not putting too much irony in the joke of him being the leader, I believe more in my ability to be a bestselling author than for Corbyn to be right for the UK; and I have no belief I will be a bestseller.
Tis is a wondrous day
Today is beautiful for the time of year, it may be cold and damp outside, but the sun is out, and there is blue skies above.
The problem is this is a risky time for gardeners as this warm spell can coax young buds to bloom too early and not be ready for a hard frost next month.
Why do the need our money?
As Parliament goes into talks on Brexit, I'd like to know how they can send money to countries such as India and Syria who last year spent millions of pounds on space projects and weapons of mass destruction, yet claim to be unable to feed their people?
I know this is true as I used to subscribe to Israel Today magazine, and there are not many issues when the topic did not get mentioned.
If the government wishes to do a Christian act, with the money saved from Brexit, they could give the Armed Forces, Nursing staff and the Police a living wage, and they could help the millions in the UK living on the streets, relying on charity, or living below the poverty line.
The best way to do a Christian Aid act is to leave the EU as all we are doing in supporting the decline of the German Federation; everything the EU does is to the benefit of Germany this includes the founding of the EU army.
Let's not pull our punches, if there is a war, would you trust your longest-standing enemies to guard our troops? I wouldn't. This is of course assuming the war - if it comes - is land based, not a nuclear war in which case you can have all the troops you want, it won't do you any good as the land will devastated for almost a century after the war.
Germany is in the same frame of mind as Jeremy Corbyn in thinking that Russia is the enemy, this hasn't been the case since the late 1970's; the enemy is Syria.
Remember Charity begins at home.
It is all on my blog.
As I cannot afford book covers being a lowly paid writer and I get into conflict with Draft2Digital over my cover art, I am sticking to using my blog from now on, and not putting e-book for sale. Believe me for what I get in royalties it is NO loss to me as the blog gets over 25 times as reader a day as sales I get per month.
Not a lot of writing.
At first glance, the release of four e-books in two months appears to be contrary to my resolution of writing less this year, but it isn't.
These stories have been in the editing stage for several months, and their release came about together because I decided they had reached the release stage - I could have gone further with the stories, but I have done that before to my detriment.
Other than God Walks These Dark Hills and Why me, Lord? which are on sale now, all my other work will only be these web pages.
The sequel that never came.
Four years ago, I started to write the sequel to my story A Sailor's Love; and then put the concept on hold. The reason is the first story has not sold in all this time.
If there were some sales for the romance about a young lady who finds her spiritual peace on the seashores, I would happily write the story as I enjoyed creating the characters, and their loves and lives.
A Sailor's Love www.draft2digital.com/book/34522 is mildly erotic, but the story is an erotic romance, not essentially erotica.