It is all on my blog.
Next month, I shall hopefully complete The Reunion this is the sequel to my romance A Homecoming that is set in Israel.
One contest I have to chose how to close is how, if at all, will I bring several stories to a close in my section - www.alsdominion.co.uk/the-reading-room - if I thought the readers cared, I could write a pleasant ending, but do you care?
Another writing contest I am involved in is I keep trying to convince, unsuccessfully, that if I hang on my fortunes will change.
But after three barren years, I don't believe that will happen.
Not a lot of writing.
At first glance, the release of four e-books in two months appears to be contrary to my resolution of writing less this year, but it isn't.
These stories have been in the editing stage for several months, and their release came about together because I decided they had reached the release stage - I could have gone further with the stories, but I have done that before to my detriment.
Other than God Walks These Dark Hills and Why me, Lord? Mordhiemicus which are on sale now, and The Reunion which I may bring out this month all my other work will only be these web pages until October when I will stop blogging.
The Reunion will not be going for sale as the original story ( A Homecoming) has not sold in over a year on sale.
The sequel that never came.
Several years ago, I started to write the sequel to my story A Sailor's Love; and then put the concept on hold. The reason is the first story has not sold.
If there were some sales for the romance about a young lady who finds her spiritual peace on the seashores, I would happily write the story as I enjoyed creating the characters, and writing about their loves and lives.
A Sailor's Love www.amazon.com/dp/B01E04S3JQ is mildly erotic, but the story is an erotic romance, not essentially erotica.
Money is the cause of my unhappiness.
I know Satan is for real because for over two decades I chased the dream of being a recognized writer, and being paid to write short stories. It wasn't until three years ago when I stopped chasing the rainbow and learned not to hate myself for not being able to attain the goals I set that I came to like writing again, after hating writing for several years prior, also I learned to like myself as friends told me they noticed a radical change in my personality when I stopped chasing the money, and wrote for the enjoyment again.
With the Lord's help I came to realize that giving is the the source of happiness, not seeking money; that is why I am writing on my blog not trying to sell any e-books from now on. I had hoped for a little success in writing Christian fiction short stories to end my tenure as a writer, but they never came.
It is partially the work of my parents that I do not believe when people say I am an excellent writer as they never had faith in anything I did, or wanted to do. I also put some of the blame on Satan for fueling my doubts against the words of other people to the extent I look for an aside rather than accepting the compliments.
The photo on the post is the same as the cover of one of my last e-books. The photo is one I took several years ago, on my way to King's Lynn in Norfolk. King's Lynn also featured in one of my lesser known ghost stories (What happened there?)
A hard road to walk.
Over my years as a writer, I have been challenged to stop writing about the bad, and focus on the right things, in my life. I did try to do this, but when you're at the bottom of the barrel and all you see is the bottom it's hard to believe there is a way out of the gloom.
People have suggested several times to me that I am bipolar as I have violent mood swings; it isn't that I am bipolar, it is that I learned to take the maximum joy out of the slightest bit of happiness I find. Life has taught me that each time I see the light at the end of the tunnel of gloom, it is just the roof caving in and burying me deeper.
I am happy today, it is January, it is cold outside, but at least it isn't raining. I realize this means little but as I said I take joy in the small things in life.
When you are struggling to sell stories that take weeks to write, and you see people you know are not as good at writing - according to other people - as you are getting mass sales because they have money to get promotion for their books it is hard to see the light of your value.
At the start of the year, I seriously considered why I am continuing to write when nothing is selling, and I came to the inevitable conclusion; I paid for the Grammarly editing software, and the Weebly blog so while they are paid for I may as well use them.
No more dreams left.
I want to thank Draft2Digital for their assistance in the last five years, but as sales have dropped to nil over the last year the time came to call it a day, and stop attempting to sell my e-books in a world choked with e-books.
This day would have come a lot earlier if it wasn't for the sales on Draft2Digital as Amazon proved useless as a sales market for my work.
I decided not to bring more e-books out after the three I have out this year. For the money I earn I won't be losing a lot, the blog gets over 25 times as many readers a day than I sell e-books in a month.
My decision is in no way indicative of the services provided, just that the readers would rather read a FREE blog than pay to keep me writing.
I am not doing any more e-books.
Christian Fiction writer.
I find myself continually amazed by my success, even if it is small, with my e-books, but the item which would astound me the most is if I had some degree of success as a writer of Christian fiction.
Something else that would amaze me, if not people who have read my stories, is if I got my latest story published by malcolmdown.co.uk/titles.html, this would enable the book to be seen by readers on www.eden.co.uk/christian-books/.
It's two months since I sent my request and my email has not been answered; nothing new for me, being an unknown writer I get used to being ignored.
My success would be no surprise to some of the people who have read my writing for years, but then again, I always underestimated my ability as a writer, even in the days when my Science Fiction series was selling well.
The thing that would amaze me the most is if my e-book sales up to October earned me more than $1 a week, as I have not earned that much in all my time as a writer.
I get asked if there are sequels planned for A Homecoming and God Walks These Dark Hills, or if I plan to extend Ghosts don't dance?
I could write the sequels if I thought they would get read on here as I am not bringing any e-books out after God Walks. The sequel to A Homecoming is almost complete - I never considered a sequel to God Walks, only because I thought there would be no interest in the story. As for Ghosts don't dance, I had considered extending the short story several times, again it would depend on the sales for the book to convince me to go ahead.
I am considering going back to writing ghost stories as my Christian fiction has not mustered any interest with the readers, and ghost stories was how I earned my rep in the beginning.
Reality is a bitter pill; years ago, I had the trait of planning a sequel to a story as I wrote the first story, in the end, I realized people didn't like my work enough to pay less than the price of a cup of coffee for more than a months work. These days, I rarely think beyond one story.
On sale less than a week and already selling well.
It is pleasing to see my Christian fiction e-book selling; after less than a month on sale it has already sold twice on Amazon Kindle.
It won't be a surprise to some of my friends, but it is to me, to see my Christian short stories selling, last years' Amazon bestseller for me is the romance Aliyah which I set in Israel.
If i can get some more e-book sales, I could be tempted to write a sequel to God Walks These Dark Hills - www.amazon.com/dp/B07MHDBP78.
Until last year, I had not written any Christian based stories because I thought it would be a hard genre to sell in these days of a Godless world where religion is used to cover the crime of terrorism for many people.
The way my sales are on Amazon these sales will probably be the only ones this year for me on the site. Writing Christian fiction short stories did not prove to be the boost for my sales that I had hoped for.