Nowhere to turn.
In the beginning, you think you can achieve something; then you reach the stage where belief turns to hope; then hope turns to lies that you tell yourself to keep going, and in the end, you stop believing the lies you tell yourself.
It's taken me a decade to sell my e-books on Amazon, being a writer is a hard and a thankless task.
You can tell yourself that you will get a break for only a limited time, then you realize without money you have no hope. For me, it will be over in October.
You need a tourist trade.
Aside from the arrogance of the Germans, the country is struggling for one main reason; it has very little to attract tourists other than the Munich beer festival www.alsdominion.co.uk/the-reading-room/munich-beer-festival ; if you think I am talking rot, I did spend almost three years in the country during my days in the Royal Air Force.
The only real tourist draw is a boat trip down the Rhine, but even that is not all that exciting. To thrive, a country needs tourism to bring people and money in.
The US saves the day again,
Disregarding the fact I am Pro-US, history tells no lies.
Many people show their ignorance of history when they blame the USA for being for getting involved in other people's wars.
The country who should take the blame is France, for they have a history of making a mess of things, and it's always the USA who is there to mop-up, even the Foreign Legion no longer bears allegiance to France, and has dropped the name of France from their name.
I am no history expert, but I'll give you a few examples - WW1, they said the Germans would not be able to go around the Maginot Line, yet the Germans did, the guns in the fortifications not only faced the wrong way but they had the wrong ammunition.
WW2 - the made the same error in the Ardennes and cost over 90,000 US lives in a harsh winter campaign that was needed to hold the Germans off. Don't forget the government surrendered within weeks of the war opening.
Indo-China - Oh yes, that WAS French before WW2, but people blame the US for interfering when the easiest thing to have done was to say "You still owe us from WW1 and WW2, why should we step in and save you?"
Who puts an outpost in an enemy-held territory in a position where it cannot get support, the French did that with Dien Bien Phu. DBP was no more than a look-out post in the jungle miles from the French lines.
People make the error of comparing the loss of DBP with the destruction of the US base at Khe Sahn, and they couldn't be more wrong as Khe Sahn was a supported position that got destroyed when a stray shell hit the armory.
These are only a few examples, off-hand I can add Algeria.
It's amazing how little people know of history.
People talk of the UK's debt to the EU as the EU keep demanding a leaving fee for Brexit.
How about the thousands of lives it took to keep Europe free from the jackboot of the German state in two wars, if it weren't for the US lend-lease project after WW1 France and Europe would have been in the German Confederation in 1918.
At the end of WW2, the US again paid the price to keep Europe free from Germany not only with the Marshall Plan, but the US also lost more men in the Ardennes Campaign than France did in the whole war, why? The French said the Germans could not drive tanks through the forests, but the Germans did what the French said was impossible and drove tanks through the woods, and in less than a month the Americans lost over 90,000 men,
Remember when you are celebrating next week, to some people, Christmas is a time to remember the fallen members of their family.
I am a flawed person.
There is an article on the Premier Christianity blog about scientists who think babies with Down's Syndrome should get aborted; who do these people think they are to decide for the mother?
Three years ago, a young lady with Down's Syndrome stepped out onto the catwalks of the famous and glamorous young things the press drool over.
What I am going to say next may appear to go against what I have just said, I think a lady who has got raped should have the option of aborting the baby. The reason is rape is a heinous crime, and the lady should not get forced to see the man who raped her for 16 years.
There is a lot of talk about Christian Aid, and living a Christian life, and the truth is who of us is perfect?
If a doctor had made this choice for my mother, I would not be here as my genetics are so flawed I have asked myself the question, should I have been aborted?
No surprises for me.
My bestselling e-books this year are nothing of a surprise to me.
Since her launch nearly five years ago, Forgestriker has not failed to be my most successful book on Draft2Digital. I did plan another book in the series, but sales of the last four books in the series were not encouraging and I have now changed my focus to Christian fiction short stories.
On Amazon, my bestseller this year, and for several years, is Aliyah; this is not a sign of the success of my romance so much as a sign of how little I sell on the site, I only sold three e-books in two years. I am planning to bring out the sequel to Aliyah within a month, the story as it is now can be read on this link - www.alsdominion.co.uk/the-reading-room/the-reunion.
To give you an idea of how bad things are for me - both books only sold three copies all year - some bestsellers. The way my sales are slowing, I wonder if I will sell anything else this year?
Beyond a miracle?
As Premier Christianity magazine likes to talk about celebrity gossip, this article should please them; in a recent article they raised the topic of how far should a comedian go in telling religious jokes; this is a religious joke, but at the root of it, the Lord answers why soccer is so bad these days.
Last night our Lord was seen at Old Trafford, Manchester, talking to José Mourinho; it appears that Mr. Mourinho asked the Lord for a miracle to save his job and the club.
The Lord replied, "You asked me for a miracle, but what you propose is beyond a miracle. I can't provide the miracle you need as your team lacks an essential element, that is faith. I will give you some sound advice, teach them to play from the heart, not the wallet. One of your predecessors (Ron Atkinson) made the same mistake in trying to buy success; he forgot the most successful team was built from the ruins of the Munich Air disaster by Sir Matt Busby because his team believed in themselves, not who looked best on the pitch or who got paid the most."
Fire and Brimstone?
Among the other what-ifs in my life is the question of what sort of clergyman would I have been if I'd not missed the opportunity I see in hindsight - www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/did-i-miss-my-vocation-in-life - I used to view myself as the old style fire and brimstone type of preacher, but things have changed.
It's odd, or is it, how reading Premier Christianity magazine has changed my style of writing. Perhaps, I was ready for the change, but had no direction.
Since I began writing my stories - www.alsdominion.co.uk/the-reading-room - I have thought more I am a more forgiving and forward thinking type of person than I imagined.
I can say one thing for sure; if someone came to me to marry them in my church after getting married in secret - www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/whatever-next - no matter who they were I would be forced to decline the offer on the grounds that they never asked before they got married.
My way of thinking would go against the norm for I am not against same-sex marriage, to me if two people love each they should be allowed to marry; isn't it better that two people who love each other get married and be happy than for them to marry a person of the opposite sex because society looks easier on them though they are unhappy.
Christianity is becoming a joke.
The more I read about Christianity in the modern world, the dismayed I become about religion.
The latest debacle is a Cathedral in the UK has installed a giant slide to raise the subject of Christianity and talk about those who slide in the downward spiral.
What next, a shooting gallery to shoot down skeptics and those who criticize Christianity?
I am no Biblical scholar, but there is a passage in the scriptures where the Jesus turned the merchants out of the house of his father; I don't think he'd approve of all the gimmickry the church use today.
In the January 2019 issue of Premier Christianity, there is a short article by a boxer who said he felt the Hand of God help him up when he was close to being knocked out, please, it was more likely the hand of his promoter or the desire to get paid, not anything remotely sacred. After all, if people go to see a 12-round fight; they are going to feel ticked off if it's over by the end of the 5th round, and the loser won't get many more fight offers.
I never saw myself writing Christian fiction, never mind selling e-books www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B07MHDBP78 or www.draft2digital.com/book/402152 in the genre.
So, Justin Bieber got married in a church after having a marriage in secret; if he wanted a church marriage why not arrange one from the start? Oh, this is just another celebrity publicity stunt.
Premier Christianity and Twitter.
I don't expect to see any benefits from having my Twitter tweet published in this month's issue of Premier Christianity magazine, but publicity is its reward in my view, and this is another feather in my cap.
I have to say that PC has improved this month, I am still not certain if I will get a renewal for my subscription next year, but it is looking more toward me renewing than not renewing.