I used to a dreamer.
I knew of a storyteller of old who had many people praise his work www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/how-great-thou-art, but no matter who admired his work he soon learned that praises do not bring sales. He kept questioning his values as a writer to the point he didn't believe what he got told.
He wrote a successful science fiction series www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/my-success-with-writing-science-fiction about a group of men struggling with the loneliness of being on a deserted craft in the voids of space.
Before that, he wrote an award-winning book www.amazon.com/dp/B008BEDMSO that he hoped could be a series of short stories, again awards do not bring sales.
In his early career he wrote a highly praised crime fiction story www.draft2digital.com/book/32325 that he hoped would start a series, but despite praises from a police officer in Queensland nothing happened.
I wonder what became of him; some stories say he got so disillusioned he stopped writing - www.alsdominion.co.uk/the-reading-room/author-goes-missing - there is a rumor that he left writing to become a priest - www.alsdominion.co.uk/the-reading-room/just-a-priest - so he could forget his past, and live out his days in seclusion.