Why do the need our money?
As Parliament goes into talks on Brexit, I'd like to know how they can send money to countries such as India and Syria who last year spent millions of pounds on space projects and weapons of mass destruction, yet claim to be unable to feed their people?
I know this is true as I used to subscribe to Israel Today magazine, and there are not many issues when the topic did not get mentioned.
If the government wishes to do a Christian act, with the money saved from Brexit, they could give the Armed Forces, Nursing staff and the Police a living wage, and they could help the millions in the UK living on the streets, relying on charity, or living below the poverty line.
The best way to do a Christian Aid act is to leave the EU as all we are doing in supporting the decline of the German Federation; everything the EU does is to the benefit of Germany this includes the founding of the EU army.
Let's not pull our punches, if there is a war, would you trust your longest-standing enemies to guard our troops? I wouldn't. This is of course assuming the war - if it comes - is land based, not a nuclear war in which case you can have all the troops you want, it won't do you any good as the land will devastated for almost a century after the war.
Germany is in the same frame of mind as Jeremy Corbyn - www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/jeremy-corbyn-the-rat - in thinking that Russia is the enemy, this hasn't been the case since the late 1970's; the enemy is Syria.
When I was in the RAF, the Russians used to send planes over only to test our reaction, the following month we'd do the same; it was no more than a friendly exercise, too many Russians still recall the horrors of WW2.
Remember Charity begins at home.
It is all on my blog.
Next month, I shall hopefully complete The Reunion this is the sequel to my romance A Homecoming that is set in Israel.
The writing contest I am involved in is with myself; I keep trying to convince, unsuccessfully, that if I hang on my fortunes will change.
But after three barren years, I don't believe that will happen.
Not a lot of writing.
At first glance, the release of four e-books in two months appears to be contrary to my resolution of writing less this year, but it isn't.
These stories have been in the editing stage for several months, and their release came about together because I decided they had reached the release stage - I could have gone further with the stories, but I have done that before to my detriment.
Other than God Walks These Dark Hills and Why me, Lord? Mordhiemicus which are on sale now, and The Reunion which I may bring out this month all my other work will only be these web pages until October when I will stop blogging.
The sequel that never came.
Several years ago, I started to write the sequel to my story A Sailor's Love; and then put the concept on hold. The reason is the first story has not sold.
If there were some sales for the romance about a young lady who finds her spiritual peace on the seashores, I would happily write the story as I enjoyed creating the characters, and writing about their loves and lives.
A Sailor's Love www.draft2digital.com/book/34522 is mildly erotic, but the story is an erotic romance, not essentially erotica.
Money is the cause of my unhappiness.
I know Satan is for real because for over two decades I chased the dream of being a recognized writer, and being paid to write short stories. It wasn't until three years ago when I stopped chasing the rainbow and learned not to hate myself for not being able to attain the goals I set that I came to like writing again, after hating writing for several years prior, also I learned to like myself as friends told me they noticed a radical change in my personality when I stopped chasing the money, and wrote for the enjoyment again.
With the Lord's help I came to realize that giving is the the source of happiness, not seeking money; that is why I am writing on my blog not trying to sell any e-books from now on. I had hoped for a little success in writing Christian fiction short stories to end my tenure as a writer, but they never came.
The photo on the post is the same as the cover of one of my last e-books. The photo is one I took several years ago, on my way to King's Lynn in Norfolk. King's Lynn also featured in one of my lesser known ghost stories (What happened there?)
A hard road to walk.
Over my years as a writer, I have been challenged to stop writing about the bad, and focus on the right things, in my life. I did try to do this, but when you're at the bottom of the barrel and all you see is the bottom it's hard to believe there is a way out of the gloom.
People have suggested several times to me that I am bipolar as I have violent mood swings; it isn't that I am bipolar, it is that I learned to take the maximum joy out of the slightest bit of happiness I find. Life has taught me that each time I see the light at the end of the tunnel of gloom, it is just the roof caving in and burying me deeper.
I am happy today, it is January, it is cold outside, but at least it isn't raining. I realize this means little but as I said I take joy in the small things in life.
When you are struggling to sell stories that take weeks to write, and you see people you know are not as good at writing - according to other people - as you are getting mass sales because they have money to get promotion for their books it is hard to see the light of your value.
At the start of the year, I seriously considered why I am continuing to write when nothing is selling, and I came to the inevitable conclusion; I paid for the Grammarly editing software, and the Weebly blog so while they are paid for I may as well use them.
No more dreams left.
I want to thank Draft2Digital for their assistance in the last five years, but as sales have dropped to nil over the last year the time came to call it a day, and stop attempting to sell my e-books in a world choked with e-books.
This day would have come a lot earlier if it wasn't for the sales on Draft2Digital as Amazon proved useless as a sales market for my work.
I decided not to bring more e-books out after the three I have out this year. For the money I earn I won't be losing a lot, the blog gets over 25 times as many readers a day than I sell e-books in a month.
My decision is in no way indicative of the services provided, just that the readers would rather read a FREE blog than pay to keep me writing.
I am not doing any more e-books.
Last year, I earned so little by selling my e-books that I decided to stop putting them for sale from now on, the only place to read my work will in future be on my blog.
I get less than $0.50 a month from Amazon, and it has taken me almost a year to get the $10 minimum to get paid by Draft2Digital; it's plain to me that you are happy to read my FREE blog, but have no intention of helping me by buying my e-books so I can feel I have some value as a writer.
Whether it takes five days, five weeks, or five months I cannot tell you. all I can say is The Final Countdown has begun and by October at the latest I will not be writing, not even on here.
Christian Fiction writer.
I find myself continually amazed by my success, even if it is small, with my e-books, but the item which would astound me the most is if I had some degree of success as a writer of Christian fiction.
Something else that would amaze me, if not people who have read my stories, is if I got my latest story published by malcolmdown.co.uk/titles.html, this would enable the book to be seen by readers on www.eden.co.uk/christian-books/.
My success would be no surprise to some of the people who have read my writing for years, but then again, I always underestimated my ability as a writer, even in the days when my Science Fiction series was selling well.
The thing that would amaze me the most is if my e-book sales up to October earned me more than $1 a week, as I have not earned that much in all my time as a writer.
I get asked if there are sequels planned for A Homecoming and God Walks These Dark Hills, or if I plan to extend Ghosts don't dance?
I could write the sequels if I thought they would get read on here as I am not bringing any e-books out after God Walks. The sequel to A Homecoming is almost complete - I never considered a sequel to God Walks, only because I thought there would be no interest in the story. As for Ghosts don't dance, I had considered extending the short story several times, again it would depend on the sales for the book to convince me to go ahead.
I am considering going back to writing ghost stories as my Christian fiction has not mustered any interest with the readers, and ghost stories was how I earned my rep in the beginning.
Reality is a bitter pill; years ago, I had the trait of planning a sequel to a story as I wrote the first story, in the end, I realized people didn't like my work enough to pay less than the price of a cup of coffee for more than a months work. These days, I rarely think beyond one story.