A time when I was going to write books.
Two years ago, I helped a Polish photographer succeed with his KickStarter project, my gift of thanks is a set of photos using his models; the girl with the sword is one of those girls. Many of the girls, thought pretty, did not appeal to me as they were too thin. I was going to use some of the photos as book covers, but all of that is in the past.
Dreams of days past.
When I open my computer I reminded of the days when I was a dreamer - www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/are-you-a-dreamer, and I thought I could get a story published in the Black Library (Warhammer) pages; that dream lasted only three years before I killed it off like many more dreams.
A vote of No Confidence.
If Theresa May had pulled the UK out of the EU two years ago after the Brexit vote, she could have won an election and destroyed Labour for decades.
But, she dithered because she never had the smallest intention of heeding the call of the people to LeaveEU. Why should MPs vote to leave when they have accounts in the EU to avoid paying UK income tax?
The whole process was no more than a BrexitScam, even more of a scam than Xlibris www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/xlibris and that is some claim to infamy.
I cannot understand how the working people of the UK could comprehend staying in the EU; all we are doing is supporting Germany by sending over £54 billion a year to stop them from going bankrupt.
A different if not new genre for me.
For no reason, in particular, I have not written a story about Satanism before now.
In the last few weeks, as I decided to end my decade long struggle for recognition and e-book sales as a writer, I have thought several times about correcting this situation.
Writing this style would not be far from my early days when I won praise for writing excellent ghost stories.
As they say, there's no fool like an old fool, how true that saying is.
If I had been wise, I would have quit writing when I was onto a good thing four years ago, and not keep writing in the hope of a revival that never came.
Now, four years after my heyday www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/how-great-thou-art , I leave the writing community at the bottom and with an endless source of disenchantment for not only the money I spent last year in buying a book cover but towards those people who abused my help over the years without any thanks.
Did someone know me?
Life is full of inconsistencies; that is what makes life a thrill for me for I have an enquiring mind. Some of the things that once held a mystery I have been able to explain, often it turned out to be mundane, such as how my watch jumped two hours when I was in Germany. In this case, it was later shown to be no more than me putting forward my watch for BST, and forgetting it was an automatic winder; it was the first automatic watch I owned.
One thing I have never been able to work out is what happened at RAF Lossiemouth - www.raf.mod.uk/our-organisation/stations/raf-lossiemouth/ - one day; I received a message from the station post office to collect a large parcel addressed to me, in itself, it was not an unusual request, until I saw the postmark (RAF Cottesmore).
I left Trade Training at RAF Cosford - www.rafmuseum.org.uk/cosford/ -only a few months ago, and I recalled where my friends had got posted to, one had got a posting to RAF Coltishall - www.heritage.norfolk.gov.uk/raf-coltishall - in Norfolk. I thought I knew most of the stations in the UK - by name if not area - but I had not heard of Cottesmore www.forces-war-records.co.uk/units/572/raf-cottesmore, so I have no idea who could be there who knew me.
There is a connected story to this one. While I was doing my training at Cosford, I thought I could feel a presence in one of the hangars we were moving the planes into for the opening of the museum. Several former pilots have noted that a ghost haunts the Lincoln bomber and the sound of switches being turned on and engines running up has been recorded on video.
What became of him?
-I knew of a storyteller of old who had many people praise his work www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/how-great-thou-art, but no matter who admired his work he soon learned that praises do not bring sales. He kept questioning his values as a writer to the point he didn't believe what he got told.
He wrote a successful science fiction series www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/my-success-with-writing-science-fiction about a group of men struggling with the loneliness of being on a deserted craft in the voids of space.
Before that, he wrote an award-winning book www.amazon.com/dp/B008BEDMSO that he hoped could be a series of short stories, again awards do not bring sales.
In his early career he wrote a highly praised crime fiction story www.draft2digital.com/book/32325 that he hoped would start a series, but despite praises from a police officer in Queensland nothing happened.
I wonder what became of him; some stories say he got so disillusioned he stopped writing - www.alsdominion.co.uk/the-reading-room/author-goes-missing - there is a rumor that he left writing to become a priest - www.alsdominion.co.uk/the-reading-room/just-a-priest - so he could forget his past, and live out his days in seclusion.
While I agree that pulling out of the EU is for the best for the people of France; I do not agree that moving out of NATO will be of any good, nor moving from the influence of USA policies as France is in an awkward position geographically.
The country is in no position to defend herself if a German attack comes or one from another state; if she thinks Russia will rush to their defense, Ms. Le Pen is getting misled by Vladimir Putin. I am not saying she is stupid to trust Putin, only that he is telling her lies.
If there is another war, and I don't think there will be one, Germany will fall within days now there are no Royal Air Force airbases there. The Army can only be expected to hold off ground attacks for a few days.
Then where is France going to turn?
In previous wars, France could call on the Foreign Legion to defend her back in a crisis, but that has not been the situation since the mid-60s and the war in Algeria, the Legion now only bears allegiance to themselves.
Tw questions I kept asking were, did I miss my vocation - www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/did-i-miss-my-vocation-in-life when I was in the Royal Air Force?
If I did miss my vocation would I have been content to be just a Priest, or would it have been possible to do better things - www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/the-day-billy-graham-came-to-bristol - in the name of our Lord.
Those questions I cannot answer, and they raise the question of what type of Priest would I have been www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/i-wonder-what-type-of-preacher-i-may-have-been?
Certain things I can say for certain is that I would not have allowed my church to be desecrated by either the marriage of a celebrity for publicity as in the case of the second marriage, after a secret marriage, by Justin Bieber. I don't care what his wife says, if she wanted a church marriage why get married in secret then in church if not for th celebrity craze of saying the Lord helped me make the decision?
Nor would I have permitted the use of fairground attractions in my church as some churches have these days these antics make me concerned about what will happen next - www.alsdominion.co.uk/home/whatever-next?
I am certain if the church wanted to depict people falling from grace to sin there are young painters who would have leapt at the opportunity, and by paying them the church would have done a Christian act rather than taken itself into a tawdry situation.
Nobody wants you.
While I was trying to get a contract for my books, there were no genuine offers, and yet this morning I had an email offering me the opportunity to enter a romance film writing contest at a discounted price.
The first irony is that I cannot afford any more expenses as I am not selling e-books. The second irony is I am no longer writing.
I have tried to enter this type of contest several times with no success, so there is no point in even thinking about the competition even if I could afford the outlay.